Completely Random :P

Basically, I'm just going to rant about everything right now. Ready? Set? Go!

Well, I'm currently watching Disney channel while babysitting my little sister Gracie. Do people even call her that anymore? I always hear people say Grace, but like, that child isn't graceful, she's an utter freak and that's why everyone loves her! Anyway, I'm also listening to music, and may I just say that the song "Clarity" is amazing? Well it is, if you wanted to know. If only I had the range to sing it... *tear* Whatever, there are more songs to sing than that. You know, I should probably be packing for my Six Flags trip tomorrow... OH YEAH WE'RE GOING TO SIX FLAGS! Sometimes the awesomeness of that fades away until I think about it again, so that would explain my all-caps. I guess tomorrow will be a day of throwing caution to the wind... I'M GOING TO GO ON
EVERY[nothing]THING!!!! HECK YEAH!!!! Okay I'm semi-kidding back there, I think I'll go on as much as my stomach can tolerate... Wow, the eighth grade actually gets a lot of benefits. I mean, we get to go to Six Flags tomorrow, (Well the musical kids anyway... Muahahaha everyone else (:<) Lake Compounce, a dinner dance *cough*, and a way too extravagant graduation. Speaking of this dinner dance... Do you know how fantabulous it would be to get asked? Pretty fantabulous, if I do say so myself, but being the wallflower I am, that's not going to happen unless I do something sneaky or a miracle happens XD. But, my friends are fun to hang out with so I'm sure we'll still have an awesome time being our strange, sarcastic selves :D. Well, I better go pack for my trip tomorrow, adios.
~Kay

Bullying Sucks

You know, people have some nerve if they make fun of people. Why do people get joy out of it? Is there even a motive? I mean, there are people who literally tell others to kill themselves... That's freaking inhumane. You've got people who think murderers are sick, but um, hello, telling someone to go die is only leading to their suicide. Doesn't that at least make you an accomplice? In my opinion, it does. Even calling someone fat, stupid, or ugly could still lead to harm. They could cut themselves, or starve themselves. I'd consider you an accomplice in those situations, too. Bullying technically is a crime, even without the points I'm trying to make. It's illegal, and people seem to forget that. Honestly, I think that next time you get bullied, you should call the police. I doubt that person will ever bully again. Discipline is the key to ending bullying, because trying to be understanding just amounts to manipulation. If scaring people into not bullying is what it takes to make it stop, then I guess that's a step we'll have to take.
~Kay

"Popular"

"Oh god, I hate the popular girls at school."
"Ugh, here come the popular guys."
"Crap, it's the jocks."
"Oh man, I can smell their perfume from here."
So, a lot of us hate popular people at school, right? Well, these so-called "popular" people aren't actually popular at all. If they're mean, and half the school doesn't like them, they're definitely not popular, they've just put themselves upon a pedestal and try to tear down everyone else who tried to build their own. People who are actually popular are usually ones that are nice and get along with all different kinds of people, not ones that get along with their own kind and bully everyone else. Jerks are only "popular" because we let them get that way. My advice is to not let them scare you, and if they do something mean, call them out on it, because they really aren't any higher-class than you are, they just somehow trick the world into believing that...

When I Was Young...

When I was young,
I'd steal Mommy's shoes,
Pretending to be all grown-up,
because that's all I wanted.

When I was young,
I'd take out Pretty Pretty Princess,
and wear clip-on earrings,
just to look like a big girl.

When I was young,
I'd dance in pretty dresses,
prancing around the room,
for all my toys to watch.

As I grew a bit,
I tried on Mommy's shoes...
But then they fit.

As I grew a bit,
I broke out Pretty Pretty Princess...
But my ears had been pierced.

As I grew a bit,
I found those pretty dresses...
But no one wanted to watch.

Now I'm an adolescent,
and I hate Mommy's shoes...
They're not my style.

Now I'm an adolescent,
and I don't even wear my earrings...
They'll just fall out.

Now I'm an adolescent,
and I gave away my pretty dresses...
I don't even want to watch me.

The future is nearing,
and soon I'll be Mommy,
with a daughter who steals my shoes.

The future is nearing,
and soon I'll be giving Pretty Pretty Princess,
to my own little princess.

The future is nearing,
and soon I'll have no audience,
because it'll belong to a new young girl.

I'm grasping onto my childhood
with all my might,
because before you know it,
it's gone.

~Kay

How Motivational .-.

Currently, we're amidst CMTs... Fun, right? No. At least they're easy, though, plus I don't have to suffer through speaking Spanish at 7:35 AM. Sorry but I don't even want to speak my own language at that time. But anyway, I'd just like to say thank you for the motivational pencils that the school provides for us. I mean, what could be more encouraging than writing utensils that read "SURGE TOWARD CMT SUCCESS,"? (and yes, the surge is our sports team name...) Lots of things, that's what. Seriously, these pencils don't even write well and I'm expected to write a whole prompt with it? Excuse me, no, because this is just pathetic. Was there really nothing our school could spend money on that was just a smidgeon more important than crappy pencils? I mean, yeah, I'm totally overreacting because they're just pencils, but I'm really talking about the principle here. The school will complain that there isn't enough money in the budget, and then use the bit that they have on custom-made pencils. It's just nonsense. Why not spend this money on rubber bracelets of something? Maybe, they could be for suicide or self harm awareness, something that actually greatly impacts students, unlike the CMTs that are really just there to make the school look good. If the money is going to be spent, it may as well be something worthwhile.
~Kay

Logic vs. Love

First off, this post was inspired by the confusion of a friend who will not be named. But anyway, a lot of people seem to feel conflicted as to how they feel towards a certain someone. "Do I like him...?" some may ask. Well stop right there. Thinking about it isn't going to tell you if you like someone. If you like someone, you're going to feel differently around them than you do around anyone else. You'll get butterflies in your stomach. You'll end up saying something stupid. You'll find yourself staring. You just won't feel... Normal! That's how you'll know you like that person! Once you find out what you're actually feeling, you can proceed with thinking about what made you conflicted, because chances are, there's something you can't overlook. Now sometimes, this imperfection doesn't matter, like if the person bites his nails or twirls her hair. It's not a big deal. But, if she tends to be mean or he seems somewhat careless, you may want to just walk away. Whether you like this person or not, he/she probably isn't worth your time if you're overlooking a big thing. Bottom line, stop overthinking things. You're going to feel how you're going to feel, so just go with your instinct. As Hunter Hayes says, "Put aside the math and the logic. You've gotta know you want it too."
~Kay

Bully-Free Zone? I Think Not!

Okay, I'm not sure if it's just at my school, but most of the teachers do nothing when bullying is at hand.  Oh sure, they have their sad attempt at stopping it by putting up signs in the hallway that say "stop bullying," but uh, newsflash! Words on a wall are MEANINGLESS to a bully because that sign won't prevent anything once they've hurt someone. That's when teachers have to pry themselves away from the computer (yeah that's right, we're not the only ones with an internet problem!) and actually penalize that person, otherwise he or she is going to continue victimizing students. Teachers want their students to respect them, but if they're going to be bystanders, then what's there to respect? And I'm not accusing all teachers of doing nothing, because there are some that do try to help, but unless everyone works together, nothing can be solved. I mean, if one teacher is way too relaxed and the other actually does crack down on bullies, students are going to be left confused as to which teacher's rules they should be following.

Now don't think us students are innocent, because we're definitely not. Some of us are usually the bullies, and a lot of us tend to be the bystanders. I will openly admit that in the beginning of this school year and before that, I was normally a bystander, but then I started to really notice how awful we were treating each other. Actually, a lot of my friends are victims of bullying, which is another thing that gave me a kick in the butt to start taking action. I'm happy to say that I have called out a bully or two, but there are some situations where you honestly can't do anything. For example, when some jock who thinks he's better than everyone walks up to a geek and says "Hey *name*." Did he say anything wrong? No. But I'm sure that behind the simple greeting, he meant it to sound snobby. Now when this happens, I always want to say somethig to the effect of "Would you just leave him alone??" but, then that could make me the bully in that certain scenario, which is not what I want to happen.

No one is innocent. I'm sure we've all been on both sides of the bullying, victim or jerk, at some point in our lives. But, it's only those who have realized whatever wrong they've done is actually
wrong that, at least I, can respect. So, if you want you continue being a bystander or a bully, then go on without me, and whoever else came to the realization of "Hey, I'm a jerk!" because we're not going to stand for it anymore.

~Kay

So Here I Am

Hello World,
I'm quiet. I'm shy. I don't talk to strangers. Being a wallflower is something that I just can't overcome. But, that's why I'm here on this blog. I want to have my opinions out there. I want people to know the real me. I want to show that I'm more than what I appear to be.
My biggest reason for not wanting to speak a lot is because I don't want to say the wrong thing. I feel like people will judge me on that one, little mistake. If I don't talk, they've got nothing to judge. But by the same token, they won't see me for who I am. They won't see me for anyone, and that's something that has bothered me lately.
So many thoughts run through my head during every moment, but because I'm afraid of judgements, I keep them to myself. On this blog, I'm not going to be afraid of what people think. I'm open to any comments people leave, whether they agree or disagree with me. I'm always up for a discussion, and even for a debate.
So here I am, about to just open up to the Internet through all of my future posts. This should be interesting.

~Kay